kill me

i couldnt think anymore
T.T

i am always like this
like the song titled jenny
'first you say you won't,then you say you will
you keep me hanging on, without moving on'
this is what i keep repeating
i'm sorry if i keep you up and down, really
i don't want to

holding book
my mind is full of you
please, kill me

dare not to accept the thing i wanted the most
scared of getting hurt
i know, i am a coward

at the moment i forbid myself from approaching it
i thought i would be happy
however
it is just lying over myself
i am soooo dead
sooo dead
dead
I'M DEAD









If loving me is the most suffering case
i'm sorry
*cries*
the inability to speak in vulgar words make me suffer alot
i really cant find a way for me to release all my stress
i hate myself
i hate this world
i hate ...................
i don't have the gut to kill myself,
so please kill me.