decide? not? decide? not?

there is something on my mind
i am afraid to make decision
and i think this is the reason, i still haven't made up my mind
until tonight
i feel that i have decided
i am not sure.. i just feel that way..
i am not confident.. i am not ready.. yet
but there's a little voice telling me this is what i should do..
not sure whether am i being rational like i am always NOT
but i learned that.. let it be
appreciate while you still own it
at least you think you do
why worry so much?
it doesnt help anything
whoa.. if i can think like this all the time
i wont emo anymore lols
perhaps, not making decision is consider as running away from problem
but at the same time, i am allowing time to prove and show me the path i should take


"i don't care what ll happen.. i just want to do this..''


first time in my life.. this thinking popped out..
however, at the next second, i doubted
i never wanted to regret, this is why i can hardly make decision
from head to tail.. first to last.. front to back..
i am just talkin crap.. talking about my sudden feeling..
ahh.. dun care first.. just enjoy whatever i have now..
delaying again?
huh.. who cares? theres no due date for it. not like assignment ==


maybe, i should just sit here and wait for things to happen at its own.


something is going on, i know, someone is making a move.

p/s: dun ask me anything if u dun understand. i dun think anyone does. just expressing my feeling here.