不完美

我不是机器

我也会累

也会忙不过来

也会把事情搞砸

不能把所有事情都顾全

因为我能力有限

宁愿你们把我看成办事能力非常低的人

不要对我的期望那么高好吗

我已经够累了

动力的来源

是一个非常容易就overstressed的人

压力到会拔自己头发

暴饮暴食

抱着毛巾痛苦 （因纸巾不能负荷泛滥的眼泪）

看着pps发呆

强逼室友陪我逛街购物

跟人乱聊装熟

逼男友陪我玩solitaire

现在就是压力得不读书看麦兜

真的很需要解压

需要远走高飞一会儿

这样下去我怕我真怕自己会寻短

呵呵呵 没有拉

其实我的内心和我外表一样阳光的不得了呢

so excited

快点帮我想

还有什么地方还没去？

还有什么还没吃？

还有什么还没玩？

最最重要的是要帮我想

什么发型比较适合四方帽？

我要回去吃crab跳latin发掘kl美食料

ohmygod 我很开心

会不会太兴奋而因此暴毙?

c'est tout

表现很差

很难过对自己很失望

好像在担心辜负了谁

但原来全都是自己给自己的压力

脑袋一半在难过　另一半在安慰自己只不过是件小事

错综复杂中　有个声音告诉我

还有机会的

对　人生中　这连半个波浪都称不上

我真的很需要学冲浪

单方面道别

有时候 道别是单方面的

因为只有离开的那个人有感觉

离开的人，他的生活即将失去所有熟悉的人

但对于留下的人

他们的生活只不过是少了你一个

真的没什么差的



真的

有时候真的没有人在意你是否跟他们道了别

但如果你没有做到

他们会虚伪的说 哎哟 怎么没有说一声就走啦 好歹我们也吃个饭嘛



听起来是很现实

但我有点讨厌这种情况

写出来或许会少一半虚伪的人这样子对我说



又或许 没有人察觉你走了

过了很久很久他们才会突然间找不到你

会有一点点惊讶 最多最多再来点“哦大家都走了”的感叹

但就是这样而已



我曾做过留下的人

再来，我要做一个离开的人了

还有两个星期 加两天

是没什么好算的

但我还留恋着这里

想看得清楚一点

你们会不会爱上他的哦

他的笑 总是那么腼腆  让你很想一直逗他

他；害羞  总是那么轻易地低下头  不敢看你  却抿着嘴偷笑

他；大方  就算是你的错  他都把错包在身上  从不与你争个面红耳赤

他；很宽恕   不管你发什么脾气  他都静静的接受  等你冷静下来时  会对你说: 我爱你

他；爱哭  不小心说起什么  他会突然别过头  独自流泪  不敢让你知道

有人说  当你喜欢一个人  他的任何事物都会变得很美好

 难怪了...

难怪他不管做什么动作  我都觉得那么好看 (包括我教他拉丁的扭屁股动作哈哈哈)

我可以静静坐在一边   看着他的一举一动

就连撕纸张  他的手指就足以掠夺我的心

不管做什么  他都很可爱  (所以宝贝你可以挖鼻屎给我看吗)

我不姓王  这个人就是那么夸张地好

好，我不说了

我怕你们会爱上我的他呀

若你身边有这么一个人...

还坐在这里看什么鬼blog??

快点偷他的ic 和 passport  拐带他回家做煮饭公!!

I have phobia towards ...

Since I was young, mom kept warning me whenever she read news about boyfriend killed girlfriend, husband killed wife etc.
Be careful when making friends, she said.
That's my phobia, yes, towards bian tai people.
I guess that's my childhood nightmare.
I am afraid of them as much as my phobia towards ghost.
Thus my response towards biantai people and ghost are the same.
Which is to cry.
Sorry if I freaked you ><
I admit myself being a freak; for being paranoid, got cheated so easily and childish.
Please do not blame yourself.
I'm a crybaby x)

谢了

那朵玫瑰 真的好美

但 它凋谢了
所以 丢掉了

A song to share :)

Today was a fairy tale - Taylor Swift


Today was a fairytale
You were the prince
I used to be a damsel in distress
You took me by the hand and you picked me up at six
Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale
I wore a dress
You wore a dark grey t-shirt
You told me I was pretty when I looked like a mess
Today was a fairytale
Time slows down whenever you're around

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale
You've got a smile that takes me to another planet
Every move you make everything you say is right
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
All that I can say is it's getting so much clearer
Nothing made sense until the time I saw your face
Today was a fairytale

Time slows down whenever you're around
Yeah yeah

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale

Time slows down whenever you're around
I can feel my heart
It's beating in my chest
Did you feel it?
I can't put this down

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale




Don't tell me to look around and i'll find someone better because all i see is you ♥

yldabosuoyssimi

The smile on your face never fades from my memory.
First time having such a strong feeling to someone.
For you I'll wait.
You chase away my misery.
Bring me hope and smile.
I appreciate you in my life, dear you.
Blogging is the best way to express my feeling.
Can you smell it?
Here comes the season of ♥

truly madly deeply

2010 is a good year to me, at least until now.
Hope bad things do not happen, I only wish everything remain in its own place..
Couldnt bear any change right now.
I'm addicted.
Just wanna thank you, for everything.
*smile*







tuning: Savage garden's truly madly deeply

藏

我躲 我藏
我害怕面对你们

我躲 我藏
我不要所谓的帮忙

我躲 我藏
我希望
你们永远都找不到我

我知道
躲藏只躲得了一时

怎么办
我好想改名换姓

让你们忘了我

我很害怕

拜托你们放弃我，好吗？

遗失

什么是爱情？

我只知道
我们之间遗失了一些东西

我开始变得懒惰
懒得听 懒得说 懒得理
对着你，连眼睛都懒得睁开

你又在叹气
我不想再给予安慰
甚至想转身离开
那么地无情
我都给自己吓到了

心在呐喊
它说它好累
它抬不起感情这个负担
好重好重
快透不过气了

我想
除了爱情
我连耐心，关心，笑容通通还给你了
只剩下友谊在口袋里
你还要不要？

no turning back

Why am I the only different one? WHY?

Is this my faith?

Did I just let the opportunity slipped by?

Or this is how things should be?

I've chosen the left path of T junction, but I keep looking back.

There seems to be more fun at right path.

More crowded.

More opportunity.

But U-turning is not allowed.

I can only keep walking, keep walking.

Although I know this two paths are connected in the end.

I stood still, I sighed, I started to feel regret.

Maybe I should watch how things turn out to be before making so many complaints.

But now, I am jealous :(

i'm not getting any cosmetic lense

read and forget

Many things happened recently, but I've no guts to post them up here.
Not that I'm selfish and refuse to share with u guys, but I guess posting those thing can cause more and more complicated stuff to keep happening.
I want to express my feelings, not here, but somewhere erasable. For example, the 1MB memory card installed in my brain.
Someone hurted me, but so what? I still have to move on with life.
Well, I am not shame of anything I've done so far.
Maybe I am just trying to protect others although I am afraid what they will do to me.
AH. This place is totally not my diary.
Best friends are :)



p/s: don't ask me anything related to this blog. If I did not mention a thing, it means no.

p/p/s: oh my god someone called me JIE JIE so that i would raise his ffs value =___= but he's cute. why not? LOL

Goodbye without kiss

FAQ

What happened?
Its a difficult task for both of us, to remain friends

Who?
Me and L :)

Why?
I am a burden to him

When?
Since the day we went out, in august 2008. I should've realised it earlier

How?
After we broke up, I realised I can hardly find any similarities between us.
That increases the difficulty for both of us to remain friends.
I tried, to draw our distance closer.. and closer..
But to him, its just a waste of time.
Sorry for wasting your 9 months. You could probably use the time to get pregnant and give birth to a baby. wth. i'm crazy. haaaaaha :)


SO YOU REALLY THOUGHT OUT OF A SUDDEN I BECAME SO PASSIONATE WITH SNOOKER FOR NO REASON?
smart you :)

The reason I did not give up, until today, is because I still carry hope.

I really wonder why should I?

Friendship forever? Sounds familiar :)

Tear?
Not even a drop :)

Madness?
None :)

Sadness?
Hmmm... a little?

Please smile to me :)

no title

it felt so hurt
u hurted so many people T_T
i know i am no good
i will practice harder :(
aunty luisa said being talented you will be able to show a better move
but without talent you can still dance well with more effort
so i will try harder !!


p/s: i found guys with magnetic voice really charming!!




wishlist :
to be complimented by R.
to get a partner.
to get henry's reply SOON.

someone please teach me snookering!

After forcing L to bring me for snookering, we went to this restaurant named 金碑梨 which is located at sri petaling.
It is a restaurant pretty much with hong kong style.
even though i am not really satisfied with its sanitation (cockroach crawling right beside my foot)
and some of the food (potato taste sour instead of sweet at our last visit), anyway they gave us a free dessert for that.

weee~ look indulging isnt it? the green layer outside is thin and it felt like the 冰皮 of mooncake.

and also the thick cream and durian paste inside.. loves!

seafood pasta. cuttlefish taste 'hanyir' and the sauce is too little.

DONT YOU FEEL LIKE ENGULFING IT???? that's the reason i ordered.
(with addition its under the 养颜炖品 section)
Anyway it doesnt taste so nice. this is called hong kong style steamed egg.
but it has ginger taste. yucks. guess what? i actually finished the entire bowl.
Very big thank you to L.
He kept repeating a sentence which makes me feel sorry for wasting:

If an African saw this food they would have eaten everything including the bowl.

fine.

something unhappy happened.

but i guess friendship will last forever.

at least for me it does.

oh gawd, i am so emo!!

bye bye exams :D

just finished my biology paper a while ago.
waiting for them to come out and then we can go shopping liaoooo!
biology paper is very hard :(
once i came out i immediately sms-ed my daddy: what if i failed?
and he replied : sun4 qi2 zi4 ran2 jiu4 shi4 fu2 (sry no pinyin available at this comp)
so, i threw away the guiltness for not being well-prepared enough.
anyway, i'm now STRESS-FREE! wohoo!
will enjoy my one week holiday to the fullest.
yeapppeeee~~~



p/s: what if i failed biology :O booooooo..

给亲爱的你

我们的相识，热恋，冷淡；
是从一个星期见一次面，到一个星期见好几次面，直到一个月见一次来辨别的。
分分合合，虽然不舍，到最后还是要接受事实。
我一直以为一切在我掌握之中，只要我继续，你也不会离弃，但今天我发现，事实并非如此。
我已坚持了好久，到最后还是无法继续忍受你的一句话。
我再也没有信心了。
是我变了，是我不想再这样相处下去，是我放弃了。
我的脾气很好，就算生气，不到一会儿就忘了。
说了好多次的分开，都不知什么时候是真的，什么时候是假的。
因为我们一直都这样拖拖拉拉的。
也许今天起，我们会回到各自的轨道去。
两条毫不交集的平行线。
我知道，只要我恨下心，你也会成为我的过去。
只想说，就算你成了我的过去，你对我来说会是最刻骨铭心的那位。
因为这次我认真了。
恨你，是因为我真的爱过。